Selfish

I m done living for someone else.
I m done trying to make other people happy.
I m done caring about what people think about me.
I m done being manipulated by others to get what they want from me.
I am only for me, me, and me.

NEW BOOK: The rice mother

Can I live

Can I live with out you always in my way
Can I breath, sleep, dream with out you in it
Can I not be held accountable for your mistakes
Take a break from your failures
Take one day to marinate in my dreams
Chase my dreams with out stepping back to let yours fly
Can I take flight with out my wings beating to the rhythm you set them on
Love with out the fear of you finding out my hearts deepest desires
Can I live?

Emotionless

Tears stop
Feeling like all water is out of me
I lie down not knowing what is happening
Dream about death, life, both the same
I am bleeding, but don't feel it
The colour is red, the smell metalic
I wake to no emotion, still feeling nothing
Sleep doesn't come for hours, and when it does
I dream of dark skies and black oceans

Fake

Making the world believe that you are more than you are
you lie through your teeth, and some times you can't tell the difference between the truth and lies.
Do you remeber the cabin story, and the other one about Cuba. Ya they were all lies. I stood up for lies not wanting to disrupt the peace. Yet you pay me back by stealing what I work hard for.
But I warn you, you shouldn't underestimate me, for I will one day shine more brighter than you.
So for now let everyone believe all your lies, but there will come a day where you can't lie anymore, for everyone knows who you are. And babygirl the image they have of you ain't pretty.

My heartaches, but you don't feel it as yours still beats to the same rhythm
I feel your breath, like a tropical breeze, yet u still don't notice me

Life

I don't know why haven't posted for soo long, it could be that i have been busy with school and all, but i m back. I can't wait to start writing again. Yesh for sure. I miss writing.

my soul

The louder my soul screams,
The softer my voice seems I walk like a shadow in the crowd,
People pass and ignore me.

For many years I have dwelt,
Seeing the world underground.
Hundreds of tales I could tell Of things I have seen,
The places I have been,
But something's I've said pierce my soul,
Because the thoughts I have, I've stole

Come and see the truth of my Endless lie
If you see me, don't just pass me by,
Tomorrow my soul will scream no more,
And my voice will be heard once more.

Ology or the study of

anthropology-- humans
apiology -- bees
archaeology -- past culture of humans
astrology -- stars(for making predictions)
bacteriology -- bacteria
biology -- life
cartology -- maps and map-making
cetology -- whales
climatolgy -- climate
conchology -- shells
cosmetology -- cosmetics
cosmology -- universe
criminology -- crime and criminals
cryptology -- codes
ecology -- interactions in environment
sentomology -- insects
embryology -- embryos
eschatology -- death,judgement, afterlife
ethnobiology -- life pertaining to certain people
ethnology -- cultural heritage
ethology -- animal behavior
etiology -- causes and reasons
etymology -- a word
geology -- earth
graphology -- handwriting
herpetology -- reptiles
hippology -- horses
hydrology -- water
ichthyology -- fish
ideology -- ideas
mammalogy -- mammals
meteorology -- climate and weather
microbiology -- microscopic life
morphology -- structure of organis
msmusicology -- music
mycology -- fungi
myrmecology -- ants
nephology -- clouds
neurology -- brain
ornithology -- birds
ophiology -- snakes
ophthalmology -- eyes
otology -- earspale
oanthropology -- ancient human-like creatures
paleobiology -- ancient life
paleontology -- ancient life, studied through fossils
paleozoology -- ancient animals
pathology -- disease
pedology -- children
petrology -- rocks
phantomology -- supernatural beings
pharmacology -- drugs
pharyngology -- pharynx(part of throat)
phenology -- periodic biological phenomena
phenomenology -- phenomenons
philology -- historical language
phonology -- speech sounds
phraseology -- use of words and phrases
physical anthropology -- human characteristics
physiology -- characteristics of organisms
phytology -- plants(usually called botany)
phytosociology -- relationships and charactistics of plants
pomology -- fruit
psychology -- mind and behavior
pyrology -- fire
seismology -- earthquakes
sociology -- society
somatology -- human characteristics
speleology -- caves
storiology -- stories and legend
stopology -- characteristics and history of a place
tropical biology -- tropical life
vulcanology -- volcanoes
zoology -- animals

Jude the Obscure + Thomas Hardy

This was a okay book I didn't really find it inspiring, I had to read it for school, but to tell you the truth I only read a little bit of it.

Cane River + Lalita Tademy

I also read this book about a month ago and it was extremely wonderful. It's a book about four generations of African American women who survived rape, slavery, the civil war, segregation, and racism. Being African American Myself I think it's something that Touched me a lot. It taught me the human will to survive under great atrocities. Just makes you thankful for what you have.

Alias Grace + Margaret Atwood

I am almost done reading this book and I found it interesting and mind opening. In many ways Grace and I have a lot in common, because she gave up on ever being free because she felt like the world wasn't going to believe her truth but the truth that is interesting and scandalous. The truth isn't as interesting as lies. She was a women who felt like the whole world was against her so why should she think any different.

too cute

My teacher made me feel stupid

My teacher made me feel stupid today
I wanted to run anywhere, from her away
I cried in the inner me, but laughed in the outer
I thought teachers were suppose to be ur inspiration and aspiration
I thought they drew you a world that you can't imagine
They had the power to make you visit hell or heaven
She gave me that look
Like she thought I was useless, ignorant, and with no outlook
She doesn't know my desires
To her It's all satire

Box of sound

Some people are addicted to alcohol
Some to Gamble their childrens college founds on baseball

I am not addicted but intrigued by a little box of sound and light
That sucks me in at sunrise and lets me go at night

My box takes me to places I can't imagine
From Cairo, to Japan, from Jordan to Brooklyn

Sometimes when I had a bad day
my box entertains and make it all go away

Last night we fought
I shut off my box and sat in the same spot

My box draws me in, pretending that it cares about me
But it never lets me get my work done, and it makes the day after bleaky

But My box never lets me down
Its there when i cry and its there when i am mentally drowned

Like all addictions I can't live without my box
It feels like it's always with me where ever i walk

Fradulent friend

You acted like you cared about me
like i meant the world to you
But i found you out for who you are
You are a fradulent friend
With a heart of no emotions no care and vacant
You I looked up to you
You were everything i hoped to be
I wanted to grow up like you
to think like you
to be like you
but you made me realize
that I am better then you will ever be
So i am going to go to sleep tonight and when i wake
The only person i will aspire to be will be me

phrenology

The study of the shape and protuberances of the skull, based on the now discredited belief that they reveal character and mental capacity.

Kin

I walk down the street and see your black skin
and know that we are african kin

Stolen from our home of freedom and prosperity
Brought to a land where our rituals were barbarity

Worked over by the caucasian race
beaten, bruised and disgraced

Once freed, we really weren't
because we were recurrently discrimenated and emotionally burnt

Made fools of by corporations
where we suffered cultural castration

Labled drug-dealers and hoes
then told to act as those roles in shows

You are my kin
So stand tall and have thick skin

Don't you bow your head down once you're looked down at
but look back and fight the battle

Stand up tall because you're my kin
because beauty is in the eye of the beholder and beauty is your skin

East Africa

Skin Deep Dark and Lovely
Deepend by the the rays of the hot african sun
Chocolate, Mahconey, and hazelnut all in one

Skin Deep Dark and Lovely
Worked over, and abused
Now faded and bruised

Skin Deep Dark and Lovely
The cover of a caged soul
T'ill it self distructs and turns to coal

Skin Deep Dark and Lovely
Standing tall
while others are appalled

Complex

I am complex
an andetermined intellegtual
I am complex
made of nomads in a nomadic country
I am complex
Guided by a religion of peace
I am complex
locked in a soul of unnerving beauty
I am complex
With a skin that stands out in a sea of whit
I am complex
tried to put me in a box and you will see that
I am complex