Lost

Have you ever felt like you didn't know what to do with your life. I think I am having a mid life crisis eventhough i am not even in my mid life yet. Since i was eight i always wanted to become a writer. Since the first day i read my first book i wanted to figure out the magic of the words. I am in my second year of high school and it seems like everyone is sure of themselves like they know what they're going to do with their lives, but me myself i am extremely lost. Today was horrible for me I got a 51% in biology and it didn't matter that i got a 90% in english, because that fucking mark drops the rest of my marks. My parents would freak out if i told them that i wasn't going to university, because that defines me as a person to them. For my mother education is like a status symbol, which i choose not to be part of, but for my father education is power. when i was little he would tell me the story of how he got to the position he is in right now. when he was 6 years old his mother died and his father remarried quickly. His step mother was truly WICKED. She didn't want him to succeed, so she would only be nice to him when his father was around, but would abonden him when he left. When he was 7 years he taught himself how to dress, cook, and go to school by himself. My father is my biggest inspiration in life, because when i look into his eyes i know i can make it.